thanks again everyone! we are doing well she is home resting and she basically twisted my arm and said you need to go to work. but tomorrow i am taking off so i can go with her to the doctor. I made a big joke about it which made her laugh. I told her its perfect that you are going to the doctor and i am taking the day off.
She said o yeah why?
I said call of duty comes out tomorrow so i can play it all day
she said well you are back to normal!..lol
I kind of feel like i have to be that way to keep her mind off it. She was blaming herself and putting a lot on her by not trying to move forward. I guess this is my way of getting back to the normal life. I even took an inventory of what i need for my car...lol
don't get me wrong it hit me like a ton of bricks satuday when she said to me "well i guess we can throw away the sonogram"
i literally went to my room and just started crying! but i am doing ok now and all my focus and energy is with making her get better and return to normal!