[Ms Grumpy]

I don't know what I did to bring on all this hard luck but today has been a tough one.

We had to put down one of our cats this morning. We adopted Angel about 2 1/2 yrs ago and we knew that she had feline leukemia. At the time we also had adopted another cat, Topaz. We lost Topaz last year to the disease. This past week Angel had not been eating and she had labored breathing so we took her to the vet this morning. A x-ray was done of Angels chest and her lungs were covered with tumors.

Last year we tried everything we could to save Topaz and I feel guilty because I think that we prolonged his pain because we wanted to keep him around longer. We had given him IV's everyday to replenish his fluids and no matter what we did he just got worse.

With Angel today it was hard. The vet we have has been there thru all the hard times with us and she had tears in her eyes when she brought in the x-ray. I knew it was bad when I saw all those spots on her lungs. This was a cat that was extremely active and the past few days she would just be walking and fall over because she didn't have the energy to walk.

Angel brought so much Joy into our lives and I didn't want to make her suffer any more. My daughter Leah had not felt good this morning and stayed home from school and went with me to the vets. Leah was Angel's favorite and I hated to do it, but I told Leah that she needed to say goodbye. I took lots of pics of our Angel before we left.

My heart is heavy, but I know that she had a good life. If we hadn't adopted her she probably would not have had a happy life, if a life at all. I do not regret anything that we did. I told my daughter that now she has an Angel....named Angel.